It’s been years since the last time I put my birth day on private on Facebook. It means that only me that can see my birthday. Most of my friends on facebook automatically made their birthday available for their friends to notice. Therefore you’ll see their birthday reminder on your notifications.
I have my reasons though it seems bizarre but well that’s me. I just want to know how many people that really remember me. My facebook friends mostly weren’t people that close to me mostly were just my school friends that I rarely have deep conversation with and harshly let just say we know by name only. I am an introvert that hardly able to make a lot of relationship so I only have some friends that I allow myself to be close with even then doesnot mean I’ll just open up and spring my heart out. I only have a few for the deep.
The first year it was less than 15 people who really remember me. This year as in today only 2 people that remember my birthday which is my brother (the other 2 forget, how dare them!!😈😈 ) and one of my best friend. As time goes by I didn’t really give a damn by how many birthday wishes that I’ve got. But I can not lie that sometimes it hurts because of my imagination of a friendship wasn’t what I dream about. I used to see pictures or watching movies about friendship that they hang out together or having potluck together discussing vary topic in life.
Partly my fault perhaps because I wasn’t open to people or let them see the real me. Or perhaps I just don’t feel right to open up to my friends. Or perhaps twas just my imagination of a friendship. I don’t know. But surely I was tired of having a friendship that only require effort from my side. Or maybe I shouldn’t account on it. I don’t know. I was hoping I get to know more people that let them in and see the real me. People that also make an effort to have a friendship with me.
Tell me about your friendship with your best friend,, just so I have an insight that friendship is real and not just something I read on books or watch on movies.
Btw,, welcome to the big three-o.
Though you don’t remember my birthday. Though you probably remember clearly our promise. Though you might forget me. us. Whatever effing mistake happen between us.
Though I saw you happy now. Though I thought you’re going to be a father now. Though I definitely want to say personal ‘Happy Birthday’ to you. I remember him, remember her, remember us.
Though I look at your Facebook. Though I try to post a ‘Happy Birthday’ and I manage to delete it. Though I have your phone number. Though I try to compose a message and I end up delete it.
Though I want us to remain friend. Though past is past and future is future are hell different thing. Though I want you to at least say ‘Hello’. Though I was being fake when we made promise. To live effing happy and keep our ‘thing‘ in memory only.
I can’t. I can’t just to say you something and ruin everything. My happiness. Your happiness. I can’t keep you now or later. But I can keep us as memories. Beautiful sweet memories. Our beautiful sweet memories.
Maybe I’d like to remove you completely from me. Your Facebook. Your phone number. Your everything. But I know I can’t. I like to keep you as a friend. I want to keep you as a friend.
Happy Birthday, friend!
Today is the day am getting one year older.
Today is the day am feeling old.
Today is my birth day.
It’s been in this two years I desperately to have Birthday In Silent like I had last years. Means I didn’t celebrate it and didn’t give hint of my birthday on any social media so that I’ll only received less birthdays greetings and it’s from people that actually carved me in their head. Last year get less than 20 so who knows this year.
Last 2 years I made a wishlist of stuff I wish I owned and only birthday cake that came true but this year my wishlist more about my life. I made my 27 wishlist and still expecting an Audi R8, o yeaaaa *dancing*.
Today I’ll share 27 things about me that 99% people around me don’t know about it:
- I speak and write in English better than in my mother tounge
- I went to a club when I was 14
- I like gift and surprises
- I like hot vanilla milk and cold chocolate milk
- I don’t like sour fruits
- I choose to starve myself rather than eat unhealthy food
- I was stingy to myself but generous to people around me
- I was great at play pool and used to play for 7 – 8 hours in one day
- I can’t memorize lyrics and deaf tone
- I can’t say no
- I speak baby voice with my hubs and brothers
- I spoiled a lot to my hubs
- I know I like or don’t like people at first meet
- I don’t like being questioned
- I can’t drink coffee. Tea for life!!!
- I fall in love with fictional character a lot. There’s even a list
- I don’t like the color orange. Thought didn’t blend with my tanned skin
- I was cheesy. Especially when I opened my high school diary ewww….
- Rainy/Cold season is my kryptonite
- I want my life like in CSI or any action movie
- I am very open-minded or maybe too open-minded for my surroundings
- Silent is gold
- I don’t like how people call my name. Well, I don’t like my name actually.
- I have a memory of a goldfish
- I am a very sensitive person
adore like to stare male and female with plunging back line
- I can eat twice more or less than my hubs portion
“The year you were born marks only your entry into the world. Other years where you prove your worth, they are the ones worth celebrating.
” ― Jarod Kintz, This Book Title is Invisible
Thank you hubs for this beautiful and lovely 27 white roses you gave me when I was asleep and you woke me up in the middle of the night bringing and putting this in front of my half-asleep face that when I woke up in the morning I thought I was dreaming. But I saw this 27 white roses near the bed in a basin. Anyhow, thank you love! I hope more more white roses in the years to come.
It’s good with getting older because I know and will love myself even better.